End of a major phase .. huh !!

All radiation fractions are done. Chemo was done a while ago. I sigh of relief, even though it is the lowest point of physical and cosmetic condition where it has all left me now.

But the fact, a little bit of positive (progression) will resume, that the continuous regression that Chemo / Radio were doing, it self a great  relief.

A lot more is needed, but most of that is on me. Physiotherapy of jaws and neck to counter the radio-induced-fibrosis. Managing to intake more nutrition. Getting back to a Yoga  exercise routine.
Getting back to work and home work (for kids) feeding the mind.

It a new journey for next 8-12 weeks - called recovery (my doc puts it as "rehabilitation"), and the key is going to be pace is right, without getting too excited and exhausting the self back to any unwanted health-regression.

When the radiations were over, I called all dear people and found my self congratulating them :) Its a relief for them. My health and pain induced mood swings have caused them a lot of grief for sure !

Many milestones..

- 3 months  from the day of surgery

- I made it to the office in 3 months, for 2 hours and had two good hours full of energy and talking to people

- I (re) started Surya Namaskar (Just one today morning). Yes.. one counts !! and just one minute of pranayam


Small, defining milestones. With 4 more radiations to go, I am looking forward to next week. The 1st week of recovery. Today has been a good trailer.

Sleeping Pill ...

I rebelled first time after the chemo, when the doctor prescribed 5 days of Sleeping Pill / anti-anxiety medicine before bed time.

I did ask, "what is I am not anxious ?" The doc just smiled that time and told me to follow the instructions.

So, with chemo's spaced weekly, 5 out of 7 days, I used to have something to make me sleep comfortably. Slowly, I really appreciated the doctors smile.

The evening is the time when a Chemo / Radio effect gets on you and its really uncomfortable to get sleep.

Now, all of a sudden, when Chemo is over and just radio is going on, and I am used to the help before bed, the day I found myself with no pill, I felt helpless.

All nearby pharmacies we tried no one sells those without a prescription !

Tough night to sleep. Next day I called the doc to see if I can get a fresh prescription, he said "NO - you ll get hooked". Am I not already ???

The second night without the pill was even more restless.

I have to unlearn the effects of the magic pill.. and as always unlearning is more difficult that learning.

Just 6 more radiation left -- yeah ! That thought helps being less anxious.