Sleeping Pill ...

I rebelled first time after the chemo, when the doctor prescribed 5 days of Sleeping Pill / anti-anxiety medicine before bed time.

I did ask, "what is I am not anxious ?" The doc just smiled that time and told me to follow the instructions.

So, with chemo's spaced weekly, 5 out of 7 days, I used to have something to make me sleep comfortably. Slowly, I really appreciated the doctors smile.

The evening is the time when a Chemo / Radio effect gets on you and its really uncomfortable to get sleep.

Now, all of a sudden, when Chemo is over and just radio is going on, and I am used to the help before bed, the day I found myself with no pill, I felt helpless.

All nearby pharmacies we tried no one sells those without a prescription !

Tough night to sleep. Next day I called the doc to see if I can get a fresh prescription, he said "NO - you ll get hooked". Am I not already ???

The second night without the pill was even more restless.

I have to unlearn the effects of the magic pill.. and as always unlearning is more difficult that learning.

Just 6 more radiation left -- yeah ! That thought helps being less anxious.