Well it comes to a point where the thin line between what the body can take and how much it can be pushed.
I am at a point, where physically tough to drag on. Exhausted ! 11 kilograms of weight lost.
Only fluid food. Continuous nausea feeling, irritation and pain.
I do notice that at the peak of the pain, body becomes the master - not the mind !! Understandably so.
But the moment the current moment is less painful that the previous one, the mind overtakes. The hope, the positivity - all line up, adjust to the new normal level of functioning and energy and look up from there.
In any case, the doctor also felt I ve reached the 50% of the treatment and visibly exhausted and in pain. So he declared a break from treatment for an extended 5 days period.
Good and bad. Good because no Chemo on Friday, no radiation till Tuesday. But bad because the overall milestone of end of treatment also is pushed out by a few days.
Good for the body, which is knocked down and needs a break. Bad for the mind - which was counting on May 31st to be done with it.
I am at a point, where physically tough to drag on. Exhausted ! 11 kilograms of weight lost.
Only fluid food. Continuous nausea feeling, irritation and pain.
I do notice that at the peak of the pain, body becomes the master - not the mind !! Understandably so.
But the moment the current moment is less painful that the previous one, the mind overtakes. The hope, the positivity - all line up, adjust to the new normal level of functioning and energy and look up from there.
In any case, the doctor also felt I ve reached the 50% of the treatment and visibly exhausted and in pain. So he declared a break from treatment for an extended 5 days period.
Good and bad. Good because no Chemo on Friday, no radiation till Tuesday. But bad because the overall milestone of end of treatment also is pushed out by a few days.
Good for the body, which is knocked down and needs a break. Bad for the mind - which was counting on May 31st to be done with it.
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