Break for 5 days. Key expectation is to recover the body energy a bit up, reduce some discomfort and go back on treatment.
But the day 1 of the break went in being extremely sick.
I have gone through the calendar, and during the post-surgery recovery and enthusiasm, I did start working 4-5 hrs a day from home. A few calls in a week. Almost always on the e-mail and connected to the team.
But, mid way through Radiation and Chemo, I realized its not going to work that way.
I applied for more leave from work. I dropped a mail to my staff and bosses. Closed some ends and decided to shut down work until I ve the energy. Its not a decision, a compulsion !
People advice not to work during this time. But I did purely because, it keeps me occupied, constructively and that one of the things I know how to do well !!
Day 2, I had some energy and decided to pay visit to my surgeon, who did the surgery. He is absolutely the one because of whom I can even go through toughest treatment. Very positive, instills hope in me. Wanted to go chat with him just to get some hope ! And I did get a plenty.
The "golf ball" hard swelling in my left cheek, he examined and told its fluid deposit and NOT swollen muscle flap. Very key piece of assurance, as that shows one day it will come down.
I did not trust him completely. But was good to hear positive stuff. He could see that in my eyes and asked for "Aspiration".
He inserted a needle through the swollen part of the cheek and drew out 20 ml of thick fluid from there. I have had so many aspirations. But this time, it was like magic. I did feel the "Golf Ball" inflate and soften and the swelling go down by 50% in less than 2 mins.
He said, "Don't lose heart if it builds up again. But this is just to test that that golf ball is not actually hard mass, its fluid under pressure".
I was a complete convert. The whole thing about, I know my body - is out the window ! Trust the doctor.
And the break can now be used not just for rebuilding body, but rebuilding the hope !
He has passed me reference of another young person going through the same treatment, a person who did not abuse tobacco, to chat and form a support group.
Will take on that offer for sure, but for now - 2 days of break left. Let me recover for the rest.
But the day 1 of the break went in being extremely sick.
I have gone through the calendar, and during the post-surgery recovery and enthusiasm, I did start working 4-5 hrs a day from home. A few calls in a week. Almost always on the e-mail and connected to the team.
But, mid way through Radiation and Chemo, I realized its not going to work that way.
I applied for more leave from work. I dropped a mail to my staff and bosses. Closed some ends and decided to shut down work until I ve the energy. Its not a decision, a compulsion !
People advice not to work during this time. But I did purely because, it keeps me occupied, constructively and that one of the things I know how to do well !!
Day 2, I had some energy and decided to pay visit to my surgeon, who did the surgery. He is absolutely the one because of whom I can even go through toughest treatment. Very positive, instills hope in me. Wanted to go chat with him just to get some hope ! And I did get a plenty.
The "golf ball" hard swelling in my left cheek, he examined and told its fluid deposit and NOT swollen muscle flap. Very key piece of assurance, as that shows one day it will come down.
I did not trust him completely. But was good to hear positive stuff. He could see that in my eyes and asked for "Aspiration".
He inserted a needle through the swollen part of the cheek and drew out 20 ml of thick fluid from there. I have had so many aspirations. But this time, it was like magic. I did feel the "Golf Ball" inflate and soften and the swelling go down by 50% in less than 2 mins.
He said, "Don't lose heart if it builds up again. But this is just to test that that golf ball is not actually hard mass, its fluid under pressure".
I was a complete convert. The whole thing about, I know my body - is out the window ! Trust the doctor.
And the break can now be used not just for rebuilding body, but rebuilding the hope !
He has passed me reference of another young person going through the same treatment, a person who did not abuse tobacco, to chat and form a support group.
Will take on that offer for sure, but for now - 2 days of break left. Let me recover for the rest.
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