The effects of Chemo and Radiation were way too underestimated by me !!
It does take a huge toll on the mind and body in a very strange and irritating way.
Even looking at food and drink gives the nauseating feeling, but the only remedy is to keep eating and drinking - nourishing the body, compensating the loss quickly.
It slowly becomes a war over mind. Mind goes the numb, lethargic way ! wants to stay away from any form of action. Digestive system takes a toss. Even the activities I enjoy, like my morning walk, Surya Namaskar look too dull and bland.
And, I ve done outrageous experiments to keep my mind occupied and away from this constant irritation. I ve NO SENSE of music. But I have tried my hands at "piano self learning" in last two days :) that desperate.
My quest is not over - I can take input. Reading good book. Not helping. Chating with friends, a bit !
Music, not meant to ;) Sleep - not coming !!
I know it is a war on mind. Just need to find what tool to use. How far to push !!
It does take a huge toll on the mind and body in a very strange and irritating way.
Even looking at food and drink gives the nauseating feeling, but the only remedy is to keep eating and drinking - nourishing the body, compensating the loss quickly.
It slowly becomes a war over mind. Mind goes the numb, lethargic way ! wants to stay away from any form of action. Digestive system takes a toss. Even the activities I enjoy, like my morning walk, Surya Namaskar look too dull and bland.
And, I ve done outrageous experiments to keep my mind occupied and away from this constant irritation. I ve NO SENSE of music. But I have tried my hands at "piano self learning" in last two days :) that desperate.
My quest is not over - I can take input. Reading good book. Not helping. Chating with friends, a bit !
Music, not meant to ;) Sleep - not coming !!
I know it is a war on mind. Just need to find what tool to use. How far to push !!
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